The purest, sweetest love I've ever felt was from my Grandma Rose. She was my paternal grandmother and passed away before I turned eight. Growing up as an only child and having divorced parents, she was my favorite person. The major influence in my life. She taught me to tie my shoes, we watched Golden Girls together, drew pictures, etc. She passed away suddenly from an awful disease, Flesh-Eating Bacteria. I remember understanding she was gone. I didn't cry and at her funeral, my dad lifted me up to see her in the casket. I put a poem I had written for her in there and kissed her cheek. Her face was cold and I told him she wasn't in there any more. Her soul had departed. As the years went by, I knew she was my guardian angel and always in my heart, but it got harder and harder to remember her.
Being the intuitive person I am, I can connect to beings that have left us. I can feel the presence of those who are gone, but I could never connect with my grandmother. It's now been over 15 years since my grandma died and I strive to be half the woman she was. She had a heart of gold and there was no one quite like her.
Recently, I was spending time with a dear friend and I found myself getting emotional. It took me a few days to realize why this was. I found myself having bursts of tears...happy ones. I felt an overwhelming amount of love. There are all kinds of love. I've given love and received it, but it's truly rare to feel something so pure and unconditional. When I try to remember my grandma, I realize that the memories really are fading as time goes on. That's just part of life. I still feel the love I have for her and she had for me. I realized I was so emotional because for the first time in 15 years, I felt that love again, from my friend. I feel so blessed to first of all had my grandma in my life, but to feel the same kind of love again.
It reminds me that this kind of love is out there and of the good that exists within all of us. Sometimes, we don't show it or see it in others, but it's there.
As the song goes, love is the answer....Always come from a place of love.
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