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Monday, December 31, 2018

End of 2018 Thoughts....

Happy December 31st! The official last day of 2018! A few days ago, I sat at the computer and felt compelled to just write whatever came to mind. Here's the result....

The past year, I've acknowledged my growth.  I've devoted considerable time to self-care and self-love. As I reflect upon my year, I am becoming emotional, realizing  how far my journey has taken me.. My motto for 2017 was, "I am enough!" I haven't just come to believe it, I've embodied it! I wouldn't say I suffered from low self-esteem, but I'm definitely more confident in the person I am today. One reason for that, is I am allowing myself to love me, as I am... whether I am happy and content or sad and feeling broken. Wherever I am, is okay...I don't need to have all the answers; I don't have to be fearful of making mistakes. I let life flow. I am guided by G-d's spirit; I will be where I am intended to be.

Most of my life, I felt pressured to be perfect. I knew I wasn't; still to me, it seemed everyone else expected that of me. I felt that I was placed on a pedestal. I was also chastised for being "too good" and that in turn made others “feel badly about themselves.” Being extremely sensitive, this would upset me. I couldn't change who I was.
Excerpt from Light is the New Black By Rebecca Campbell

What was I to do? I've always felt different. I don’t sweat the small stuff. I find most people are focusing on things that seem so trivial. I'm not being judgmental; it’s just hard for me to relate. Instead of small talk, I prefer to jump right into a conversation, discussing philosophy or talking about ancient civilizations. I want to learn about a person's core beliefs and what they’re truly passionate about. As I've gotten older, I've learned that this is because I am an old soul. Ask me how old I am, and sometimes, I'll pause; twenty-three years of age, doesn't always come to mind. I have an inexplicable sense of wisdom. I was also blessed with a selfless paternal grandmother; she is no longer on this earth with me; but, I know, she is my guardian angel. I have her eternal love and strength of character pulsing through my veins; I believe that may be the reason that I am as empathetic as I am.
My life experiences, both good and bad, have placed me in this exact moment in time. I've been guided on my current path and I couldn't be more grateful. I like to say, "I turn my pain into purpose" and strive to live my life, with honesty and integrity. I write blogs like these to share my inner thoughts, and to share the journey of my personal growth in hopes of connecting with my readers and inspiring them.

I have reached a juncture in my life where I feel whole. I've done the work and discovered the source of many of my insecurities. Last week, while talking with a dear friend, I answered my own question: “What is preventing me from creating magnificent things for myself?” I begin the creative process but stop myself from attaining far greater successes. What would happen if I just allowed myself to put my creations out there? I often nurture others and their dreams, putting their needs before my own. What if I poured the same amount of time and love into myself? I'm ready to begin a new chapter in my life. I don't know what 2019 has in store for me....but I know it's going to be amazing.
I want to be a voice for those with invisible illnesses, to let them know they aren't alone. I want to stand up for the ones who identify differently from the "norm." What makes the world so great is our diversity. I want to continue to be the light that leads others from the darkness. My calling is to help others, even if it is merely by being available to them and listening. I have tried to fit into a preconceived idea, to make sense of “what I want to do with my life." If I am honest with myself, I have a sense of why I am here...and what I am meant to do. I wasn't put on this earth to fill a void. It is my purpose to create something unique, something unlike anything that has been created before. 
I don't require a nine-to-five job or a standardized education. Those are the opinions of others. I am not one to align with societal norms or expectations. I am meant to be an innovator. My intuition is guided by our Creator. It is time to truly heed the call. One of my greatest discoveries of 2018 is my own voice. I need not be afraid to stand up for what I truly believe. Will fear appear along the way? Most certainly it will! But staying true to one’s self is when miracles will begin to take shape!
I'd love to hear what you are most looking forward to in the coming year. Also, what is something you will commit to?
I commit to living in the moment as much as possible and to create new things, with pure love and joy!

Monday, December 17, 2018

2018 Love and Gratitude

As the year is coming to a close, I want to make a post thanking some people who have really made a difference in my life. Those that have truly touched my heart during this year.

Donna :

Meeting you, was definitely a highlight, of my year. From the moment we met, it seemed, we had known each other, all of our lives. This lovely woman, is my twin. We enjoy nearly all of the same things; from having the same favorite movie, (one from Old Hollywood), to eating creamsicles, late at night. We share the same sense of humor, and seriously need to entertain the idea of doing a podcast together. I'm not sure the world is ready for us : P

Janae :

Us meeting was divine intervention. The limited time we spent together, this past winter, was extremely meaningful to me. This woman is a literal angel...the sweetest soul you'll ever meet, with the purest heart. It's virtually impossible to be sad in Janae's presence; she's a ray of sunshine. I saw her in LA, in October, and had tears of happiness rolling down my face. I thank G-d, you have been brought into my life, and look forward to our future adventures together.

Patricia :

My sweet doll, Patricia...We met five years ago. Where does the time go? I'll never forget the outpouring of love you showed me. Patricia and I met at a business and networking conference. Near the end of the week, she approached me, took my hands into hers, and we shared the most beautiful conversation...about my value in this world and the mark I would make. We've kept in contact over the years, but this year, we reconnected; it's meant so much to me. Patricia and Scot, her husband, are truly family. I'm grateful for their love and constant prayers.

Nathalie :

We all need a friend that is the voice of reason...that's my Nats! We met at a spiritual convergence, a year ago, and have remained close. She's the voice I hear, when I start to second guess myself. She frequently will call and send me sweet texts, letting me know, she's thinking about me. Nathalie is such a beautiful, creative soul; she truly enriches my life. 

Gina :

Gina, my love! We have been "friends" for a couple of years, but got really close this year. We instantly hit it off and our souls just knew one another. Our goals and paths are very similar and I just feel so much love and gratitude for this girl! It was no coincidence that we came into each others lives and I know that we're in it together, for the long haul...We're going to change the world, girlie!

Tehrah :

My "Momma T" has been my biggest blessing of 2018; I'm unable to formulate the proper words. Both of us, have been on quite the journey, the past few years. During the past year, we have shared and experienced so much. I'm truly blessed to have had her by my side. Tehrah has imparted wisdom, from her life experiences, supported me in my personal growth, and shown me an abundance of love... sometimes tough love... but I know, she always has my best interest at heart. 

Many of my newer friendships, stem from other beautiful people, in my life. I am truly grateful to have so many wonderful friends. The year 2018, has brought me a few new angels, and has solidified many of my existing relationships. So, a thank you to all of my other lovely friends. I love you! <3 

What are three things you are grateful for? P.S. Stay tuned for my first giveaway!

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